Consumed By Memories of Infatuation

Anguished pained introvertedness choked, immobilized, paralyzed... rigor mortis frozen state held sway over mine adolescent body as if... scared to death upon unavoidable close encounter (perhaps maybe third time within same number of days), sans wretched mortified inevitable orbit, this bodily Earth- ling on trajectory to intersect app roach ching young pretty thang invoking atavistic stir of echoes invariably prayed for golden glo- bull opportunity caught unaware this thunderstruck, lovestruck, dumbstruck, nerdy kid, suddenly emotionally blindsided for naked lunch aflame with unspeakable embarrassment rendering me to blush the color of port wine, yet miserable cowardice overtook me the stunning aesthetic of female attraction totally oblivious dweeb experienced head over heels heart stopping pang of primal hunger (game to spill forth endearments) simply nonplussed, transfixed, predicated...by beguiling, enticing, intoxicating...vision before these brown eyes (despite myopia), who diverted stone faced countenance within fleeting second, when risk into uncomfortable zone (asphyxia more welcomed at that moment), when likelihood of rejection out bid any feeble attempt to muster even a broken smile, which oft re: curr ring defeat summoning forth even a meek utterance rents mine psyche asunder even to this living instant, where flashbacks remind this sensate being, asper the scent of a young woman countless times ideal circumstance left to wither on figurative vine suppressed vitality stunting psychological branching developing only withering shoots, forever atrophied, gnarled, tangled... constricting functioning, warranting a machete to clear cut dead growth!