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I wrote this for a contest several years ago. It was a challenge for me
because of the truth I was admitting to--a period of backsliding--and
because free verse is definitely NOT my forte.

Consequences

Time after time, the thief struck, 
but I could never report a loss.
Tangibles were not taken.

I knew the identity of the perpetrator
but couldn't ask for ordinary justice.
This was no ordinary criminal.

This deceiver led me down 
paths of promise to find fulfillment . . . 
for the flesh was weak.
Each time, I paid a fee,
a degree of my self-respect,
joy, and peace of mind.

How could the sincere youth 
who invited Jesus into her heart 
at age 14 be acting so--lost?

Internal thieves are the hardest to defeat.
Only God could help me.
I prayed--truly believing.
Over time, He banished the deceiver, 
my desire for what He's forbidden,
and nurtured the better part of me.

Sins, though forgiven, have consequences.
He left a reminder,
a scar in my memory,
to keep me from ever again
becoming what I once was.



Date: March 25, 2019
Contest Title: Strength Thru Adversity
Sponsor: Gregory R. Barden

Placed third in Lu Loo's Beautiful Scars contest in November 2015

May 28, 2019, entered in Anthony Slausin's Truth Poetry Contest

April 6, 2021, entered in Brian Strand's All Yours (April 7) contest

January 4, 2023
Revealing Your Soul and Other Tension Poetry Contest    Placed 2nd
Sponsor: Sotto Poet
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Roper Avatar
January 15, 2023 at 10:53 AM
Congratulations on your win in Lasaad's contest, Janice. Great journey with each stanza of your soul. Many Blessings My Friend
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January 14, 2023 at 12:02 PM
Congratulations on your win. What a write/story. It is hard to write about yourself. You did good job. Have a blessed weekend...............
Peck Avatar
January 14, 2023 at 10:47 AM
Your poem is just lovely, Janice. Forgiving ourselves is the hardest, I think. You said it beautifully in free verse (which I definitely can't write.) :)
Canerdy Avatar
January 14, 2023 at 11:14 AM
Ann, thanks a million! Janice
Poet Avatar
January 14, 2023 at 6:11 AM
Congratulations on your contest win with this fantastic poem, Janice. Blessings
Canerdy Avatar
January 14, 2023 at 6:35 AM
THANK YOU so much for sponsoring and for my win. I am thrilled and honored. Janice
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June 11, 2019 at 8:39 PM
A very deep poem, Janice, your last stanza especially - a powerful finale to a potent piece of poetry. Congratulations on your excellent win. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Canerdy Avatar
June 11, 2019 at 10:06 PM
Thanks so much, Susan. Janice
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June 7, 2019 at 10:58 PM
Congrats on your win, Janice. Well written.
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November 28, 2015 at 2:23 PM
Janice, Congratulations on your well-deserved win. Love SKAT
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November 30, 2015 at 11:28 PM
Thank you so much, SKAT. Janice
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November 27, 2015 at 3:05 AM
A very meaningful poem, Janice. Congrats!
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November 26, 2015 at 4:12 AM
Congrats on ur wonderful win Janice.. great pen!
Canerdy Avatar
November 26, 2015 at 8:17 AM
Thank you so much, Upma! Happy Thanksgiving! Janice
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November 24, 2015 at 5:19 PM
Janice...Congrats on your win in my first contest! I loved it and it was very deep..:)-lu *Smiles*
Canerdy Avatar
November 24, 2015 at 5:23 PM
Laura, thank you so much! Janice
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November 16, 2015 at 11:34 PM
Janice, this is a beautifully descriptive piece that could only have been written by one who lived it. We all have scars, and I have written about many of mine. They are what help me to continue to write. Don't be afraid to look at the scars, for those are the things that make you stronger. Thank you for sharing this.
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November 17, 2015 at 12:00 AM
Dan, thank you so much for this comment! Yes, we have to acknowledge those "scars" and always remember how they got there! I'm always glad when someone can relate to one of my poems. Janice
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