Condemnation

Condemnation- surrounds, engulfs and consumes me. More than any other, I condemn myself. Beatings and lashings that leave me unrecognizable- still I bear the bag of burdens, punishing myself. The guilt of what I have done, the unloyalty of my actions. I look only to find in myself a disgrace. And yet, you beckon me to receive your mercy, to be forgiven by your grace and still I hold to condemnation. I punish myself more harshly than you- you long to love me. Only you can release me from the prison of my past, the bondage of guilt and shame. You can help me soar, but only when I trust. Trust that all my flaws and faults don't make me less- admitting them makes me more. So set down the bag and leave it behind you say. Come enjoy life with me. I will follow you, and pleasure together we will find.