Claustrophobic Centers

Much has been felt then written about loneliness at the top Less written, yet perhaps far more often felt, about claustrophobia in the center. Problems with delegation, boundaries, predictable timelines, responsive management focus, follow through performance, closeted partisanship, competitions to be heard listened to appreciated respected for our therapeutic, and not our terrorist, potential Nonviolent calm peace, by quietly listening contrast to violent fears, invites resiliently harmonic win/win expansive sublimely integrating synergetic intention, Short-term anticipation slowly pushing out and fading a cultural climate of anxiety, chronic win/lose stress, unmitigated perennial trauma histories continuing in conspiracies of silence. Integrity's economic political potential, and not universal win/win perfectionism, delivers resonantly happy, wholesome, healthy, contented wealthy outcomes, ecologically reconnecting solidarity Here with synergetic Now sacred EarthTribal experience Seasonally slow grown with mythos and eros and ethos and aesthetics of panentheistic Paradise monoculturally Lost and yet polyculturally anticipating robust Promise Heavenly resonance is not perfectly comprehensive control of a punishingly depressive repressive self and alienated Othering governance system felt as unfree to vulnerably communicate near a constantly threatened despair about capacity to repair my egocentric transparently heady top Of a monoculturally patriarchal capital-infested win/lose zero-sum monopoly game of Seize My MonoAutonomous Day! Without unconditional regard for EgoSelf as primal co-mediator of what we look like synergetic, versus what we feel like and unlike energetic, at the top of our AnthroPrivileged lives without perfect GoldenRule encircling love. A healthier democratic trust for expansive EarthTribe circles of co-empathic investment may outdoor ease our anxious indoor claustrophobic disease fearful of disappointing both authority stuck stick-figures and our relentlessly needy constituencies Angry about loss of privacy intimacy engagement compassion integrity sleep robust nutritional choices financial loss inflation taxation authority figure predation Conflicted win/lose co-dependency silently settling for less than sacred communion experience within EarthTribe's full sung range of polycultural sensory voices Multiculturing choices to feel and grow better, healthier, safe wealthier together than lonely dancing singing solo apart On a stage with a too bright ego spotlight narrowly glaring at my own soul-embodied godlike protagonist researching unconditional warm regard Rather than conditioned cold disregard, either against my own claustrophobic aging and shrinking circle of fellow travelers, emigrating side by side toward inevitable mortality, or standing alone at the supremely pompous top of those already Othered and thereby lessened-- followers, shy sheep ready to betray, Rather than cooperatively informed collaborators steeped in Earth's sacred co-investments indigenously synergetic wisdom and Sun's enlightened whole open systemic focus. I suppose integrity's co-empathic potential for both/and nuanced warm inviting cooperative regard might be a contagiously viral win/win alternative ecofeminist view Anticipating re-integrating co-investments re-connecting ecological mythic enrichment of epically wombed Here/Now Sacred crucible for my epistemological Body/Mind timeless Life/Love experience curiously divining interdependent naked Truth/Beauty restoring classic Mundane/Sacred bicamerally balanced trust Paradise lost, truth glimpsed, renewing testaments refound In EarthTribe wounded circles, traumatized, but not yet broken health-womb wealth peaceful restorations of synergetic solidarity for Earth's most resilient thrival. While much has been autonomously felt then written in self-isolation about uneasy loneliness at the pyrrhic competitive top and diseased dismay in a viciously shrinking circle of traumatic EarthTribal climate despair, bilaterally geno/eco suicidal, desecrating inhumane transparent and vulnerably bare survival.