Christmas Was My Favorite Time of Year

Christmas was my favorite time of year, then she chose to leave with a tragic goodbye- fearing not the end, left breathless under a snow-capped Colorado pine… o, December, December, why do i remember what you gave to me during a holiday splendor the darkest part is Christmas morn, i remember her last gift opened (it was from me) a bucket full of sister stuff; journal, hoodie- handmade card expressing my love- but it never mattered, and the rain pitter-pattered and now i am left battered and tattered i try my best to celebrate the season devoid dread- ask myself how i can finally let go when all i do is hold onto woe with dear life, hold on as if it was her last day of joy (and it actually was - - -) but trying my best never put me at rest, now i have trouble feeling safe and blessed Christmas WAS my favorite time of year, then she chose death as her final farewell- for seasons are strange when they change, i crave to hear her resonating jingle bell; Christmas, somberly – leaves me unwell for i shall await this Christmas morn- praying my heart no longer torn
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12.14.19 The Darker Side of Christmas Poetry Contest Sponsor: Richard Lamoureux
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Kauffman Avatar
December 23, 2019 at 11:11 AM
Lu Loo, Congratulations on your winning placement. Your poem wonderfully expresses our feelings of helplessness in situations where the final decision of a loved one cannot be influenced or changed - the "yah but" of life. Christmas blessings.
Kitchin Avatar
December 23, 2019 at 4:31 AM
Lu Loo, congratulations on your winning placement with your wonderfully penned heart felt poem!
Lamoureux Avatar
December 22, 2019 at 7:21 PM
We pretended as long as we could so that we got more presents. Congrats and thanks for entering my contest.
Deo Avatar
December 17, 2019 at 7:46 AM
God made us for relations Memories galore on celebrations (Birthdays, partners, as was Christmas) We try moving on. Or join in His distress (prayers we all will find solace, shalom)
Cunningham Avatar
December 14, 2019 at 2:44 PM
The years pass by but you never ever forget them. A very emotional verse LuLoo. Tom
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