Change My Past
If there ever was a way I could easily go back in time,
I may change a few things here and maybe more there,
only a few crucial moments do enter my questioning mind,
one is of myself, I would’ve wished to take much better care.
During my mid-twenties I fell into the fire pit of addiction,
it led me down a rough path I would never like to admit,
caused stress on myself and family with a soul full of affliction,
the sad crime of hating my pitiful self I did commit.
I would rewind that exact moment I decided to take my first pill,
sorted out my sadness and anxiety in a much different way,
been better with finances and on time pay all my annoying bills,
maybe today my assets wouldn’t be in such disastrous disarray.
Oh, to have been able to redirect my attitude towards family,
stuck with the loved ones who were honest and on my side,
listened when given advice from the hearts of those who love me,
chosen much better people in whom which I should confide.
Sure, I do have dreams of changing things that happened in my past,
the greatest is trying harder to save my sister from committing suicide,
I lived to need her and breathed to help her; it all happened so fast,
I would give her one, no two more kisses expressing I’m on her side.
I sit here and think, as I write about what has already gone and came,
and in a fleeting moment I realize something about my sleepless night,
maybe...just maybe, I would keep my inevitable outcome the same,
for these things have inspired me with my intense passion to write.
Change My Past Contest
Sponsor: Nayda Ivette Negron
Date Written: July 24, 2016
Copyright © Lu Loo | Year Posted 2016
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