Careless

I slept full of hope and dreams I awoke empty and forgotten Careless as I was back then Morning sounds swirling in my ears Pointless thoughts filling my head "She can." but will she ever again "She is." though no longer for me I stood alone and stiff I walked slow and without purpose Careless as I was back then The smell of spring mingled with sunshine as the touch of day warmed me no more "I was." but I threw it all away "I did." though I do not know why I hoped for a day without me I cried where no one could see Careless as I was back then Was this longing joyless and caretaking awaiting its chance to bring me home again Or was I lost forever here like a wounded angel Despaired and angry the evening came again Without warning Without love Without consumption Without her "In her arms," I wondered as the sun slipped away "would I feel whole again?" my hurt had wasted another day I laid down empty and forgotten I slept full of hope and dreams Careless as I was back then