Can'T Let Go

at that stop sign in the middle of the road my mind is moving slow which way do i turn? which way do i go? i know i've gotta leave but i can't let go friends turn into foes and sweet honeys turn into sour hoes i ponder the past when the garbage seemed like gold i know i've gotta leave but i can't let go nothing ever lasts... good turns to bad and happy turns sad peace,love,and joy turn to miserable and mad still i search for diamonds in the desert and i'm finding only rocks i seek jewels in junkyards and receiving only rust i cast my pearls to swine and they devour me slow i know i've gotta leave but i can't let go it's that same smooth song that turns into sand paper symphonies mad melodies and teardrops that turn into floods ones of care and compassion now they just don't care like gripping steel rods that are burning with heat chased and criticized by bad men and beasts no love no peace.... just whirlwinds and war i grab that barbwire bleeding... i beg that monster for more i know i've gotta leave but i can't let go