Californian Weather

Neglecting the love song in my mind's eye Directing my thoughts to your flawed lie You're the highlight in my life, dynamic diamond You're the friend and foe in my nightmarish dream - I am fond of our bond We are sheltering each other from the rainstorm Silently still on my bed, awake with sudden dread Admiring the moon as it shines so vibrant against an ebony sky Show me how to live life without any worries in mind You're my miracle in disguise You're my pocketful of illuminating light, attracting many flies Quit ignoring my messages and I'm growing tired of your thoughtless goodbyes I'm trying to bite the bullet for you...the shadows of you gives me those temporary highs But what comes up must come down... I'm so mind-blown cuz I was all alone Good news - you make me wear an upside down frown when you drive me 'round in town Once upon a time, I was a broken bone when I was left on my own, no one is picking up the phone I haven't heard from you Good morning to mourning...don't you see I'm blue? Whatever I've done that meant you so much harm... I'm sorry, but I tried and tried with the shedding of tears and a restless arm Without anyone to lean on Might as well be...gone... Hello from the inside You subside from my side You light the way You're the dawn and the gray of today You're the imperfect storm inside and out You know what I'm talking about...don't make me childishly pout Ah...ah...ah... My guilty passion Beats me with affection Bombs going off like crazy I'm feeling hazy...my beautiful daisy...and feeling numb lazy Everyone changes as the years go by I'm like a Miley, good boy gone bad Today, I don't feel up to any tear shedding...all I do is smile and sigh It's not fun being me at times...you get happy and then sad My anger is under a leash and I've grown accustomed to my envy rage My frustration simmers down..I'm a fall, settling into a winter...I'm a determined, talented dancer on stage Never did I have the mind of an artist until I found my writing voice My master pieces fade away and I have no room to simply rejoice I don't know why I'm as unpredictable as the Californian weather we're getting Getting used to your opinions that differ from my own Contemplating on the piano chords in your heart that keeps playing that tune, a tune I won't be forgetting Any time soon... My shimmering afternoon moon I know I act pathetic and foolish But I got hooked to you as if I'm the fish... Caught in your net of narcissistic, daydreaming mindset I get upset because you're in wonderland while I'm in reality...drowning in regret debt