Bye-Bye Baby

I didn’t get the right to choose To have you. You were not conceived out of love, But violence from a stranger. I cried nights on end About the thought of you. I never wanted you; you should not have come into this world, Especially not like this. I tried to get rid of you, but couldn’t. They refused to let me vacuum you out of my womb, Because the rape has more justice than I sin. I had an idea of what I would feel, if they let me did it. I imagined the pain and decided It couldn’t be worse than a child knowing they were never loved and Were given to a stranger like an object. You’re in my arms with a smile wider than the sun, Your eyes sparkle and light up, You’re happy, but I’m miserable. I don’t love you, I can’t. You remind me of the pain, The struggle, The past. I’m sorry I couldn’t prevent you, Maybe you will find someone who’ll love you.