Bye

its hard for me to do to give my all and still have some left for me its something that never comes true the fact that i just cant be free my love with my father was pain he recked me and im shattered still my love with men was soft like morning rain but now its his being that i long to kill i look on my life and i see that it wasnt me that i came from it all the way i was raised was how i should be and i think thats what is my down fall i can hide to escape it all but the truth is im tired of pretending i want to jump and not fall i cant keep loving and never have my heart get mending everything is here but i can grab it cause my vision is not so clear what should i say to the man that i looked up to will he just look away when i start on about how he didnt do all he could do will the love of my life leave like he does adn im all alone he needs to know that hes what makes me breathe and that i want me and him to create a home my expectations have been shattered by all that ive done my feelings were never gathered just loaded into this empty gun things are going to be ok from now on as soon as the nosie goes out then i will be gone and there will lots of tears no doubt my blood on their hands all the faces that were never there the cold hearts of those that never could understand that this was my chance to proof that i did care showing off my face tomorrow will come they will have to find something to replace me becasue i will be shattered by the barrel of this gun