But I did not even love you

,,I still don't" I walk after her ,,What's the problem now? What's wrong? It happend 9months ago. And I appreciate it when you apologized first what you didn't even needed to do, but-" ,,which I didn't even needed to do? Do you know how the air was when we were still stuck in the same train even though we took different routes? We sat on the same seats, got the same food and drinks and got the same seousens meeting on the window. And the same newspaper. I would've collappsed If I hadn't tried saying anything." ,,So you didn't meant the apology?" ,,no" You look at your feet and smile, Wait, Do I see, Tears? ,,I still responded when you always messaged me" ,,There is where the problem starts" ,,So ignoring you would've been the best option? I kept myself short oh my god you are f7cking my head" ,,Then you should've blocked me" ,,And you wouldn't have cried after that? Everything would've repeated." ,,Yes, I would've cried. But not by the same tears" Now my eyes got soggy ,,Why did you started? Touching my hand" ,,I was 15!" ,,Why didn't you admit your mistake as soon as I tried everything to tell you what I am not okay with?" ,,I was 15!" ,,Oh? And so was I" ,,Then why do you now work as a prost8tute?" I smile ,,Because you showed me that I just would get loved by body. Now I am obsessed with the though. Of getting love. Any kind of love." ,,That is a drug the person who you stayed with who made comments with me about your body told you to take" ,,and you who made it. He apologied. He knew." His breath doesn't come after 2 minutes. ,,I didn't even needed a apology. A laughter would've been already enough. A time for me Being okay with you again. So just so i know, I don't need to think much."