Brother

Brother, I relive the night we lost you, it feels so foreign and far away, but then I realize all of this is real and you're no longer here, then my heart breaks all over again. My heart that is already shattered but now is turning to dust. It never has a chance to heal or even form a scab. It will forever be an open wound and have a terrible ache. I don't think this feeling will ever go away because you're no longer here. This isn't fair, you were supposed to be here for my entire life. To walk beside me and grow old in age, watching our families grow together and pass down all we have learned. It has always been you and I since the beginning of our time. Now I wander into the dark all alone, without you there by my side. I will never be ready for this journey. It will forever feel wrong to me, like there is nobody at the wheel. I know I need to learn how to live without you but I just can't and totally refuse. You will forever be my brother and I will never let you go. You will be here always in my heart and it's ache will always remind me that you should be here but was snatched away and torn from my soul, leaving me hollow and forever broken without a map to know where to go. Your Sister, Gilda