Broken Love

BROKEN LOVE To my daughters, Stacey & Stephanie The minute I learned I was pregnant I was scared I didn’t know a thing about being a mom I came from an abusive, angry environment And didn’t understand what a precious gift I carried inside In the days/months ahead as I prepared for your arrival I told myself, I can do this I stuffed fears & doubts down into the crevice of my heart/mind And put on a excited face But once you were born and pressures came, I didn’t know how to deal with things Things that for most healthy people seemed easy My decisions were like shots in the dark; hoping that some or one Of them would hit the mark and be right I kept trying to be a “good” mom, but I could never seem to do things well I loved you with all of my heart but it was a broken love I wanted the best for you and at times, tried to get you to see things my way I loved you with all of my soul, but it was a broken love I realized my foundation as a young mother was weak How could I expect you to grow up knowing stability When I had nothing to offer I loved you with all of my mind, but it was a broken love As I have walked this earth and tried to make a difference I have never stopped believing in you; hoping all good things for you Praying over your life I loved you with every fiber of my being, but it was with a broken love How I regret moments lost because of my brokenness I long for you to realize what you meant to me Please see the power beyond this mother’s love Because it now comes from God, freely, deeply—and because of HIS perfect love Our hearts can be healed; they can be transformed They can be whole again I loved you…