Broken In Love

I know Even if I have no evidence to prove it I know That I was never meant to be in this world! I find not my place here I like it not here I am not comfortable here I am not at ease here I am, like a fish out of water I am, like an angel fallen on Earth I am, like a plantation of watercress in the desert I am, like a stone having been given a heart! The very fact that I took birth here Broke my heart The very fact that I fell from the divine abode Shattered me to pieces So much that I strive still to re-assemble my broken pieces And walk, even if I drag my feet Trying to motivate myself To find joy and pleasure In a world so aimless and confusing! A world, where living is ruled by the cruel hands of Death! But then, I thought I found love, once I thought I would make of love my strength I would hold its hand Smile And instead of walking I would now enjoy the ride! For, love would be a carriage A carriage driven by my beloved A carriage which would allow me to sit And enjoy the passing sceneries of the paths I had to go through! But love was made of ego Of vice and selfishness Love, instead of being a strength Love, broke my heart again! Why, love was just like a cannon ball Which kept striking my most sensitive spot Love, bid me to hate my life And yearn for the skies once more! Pray, I have learnt the lesson I am to be, in this world, devoid of love For I am not to be attached to anything here I am, to get back to where I came from I am to climb up the celestial stairs And reach my home, my forsaken home! Why, the power which forced me here Is as broken hearted without me As I am without it! Pray, is love not beautiful Is love not magical When forgiveness and submission Plays in its arena? Pray, the skies unveiled themselves once And bid me to an awakening Since then, I have come to learn of myself And of my temporary stay here I have to understand Why is it that I find not my place here Pray, I may be broken hearted But I am in the process of being healed And the time shall come When the gates of the skies will open And immerse in me Joy, of an eternal nature! 9th February 2017 For contest: You broke my heart