Breathing

I’m scared of what life has in store But I’m also excited to see what it is. Back in 2021 I wanted to end it all I was ready to forfeit this race. It was always day but I chose to not see the light. Whenever it became night I kept wishing for sunrise I use to thought I had to die To escape the distress I felt I thought death was the only option To experience true freedom The idea of suicide was a friend to me It solved all of my answers back then My feelings wouldn’t be in turmoil Looking back, I realized it was a snare The emotion of going to sleep And to never wake up again. Was an intimate feeling for me. I cursed myself for waking up in the morning My perspective changed I’m optimistic for what life has I don’t want to cower in the dark And hide from the sunrises. I don’t take my mornings for granted Instead I sit there and breathe it in