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Bonedeep Lonely

Imprisoning textures
and routine lectures
in loneliness,

"your own fault"
"not Other's loss"

blame
shame
dipolar co-arising

Loneliness effacing
cognitive/affective reason
and denying access
to more social future seasons

Including primal memories
of self-appreciation
self-sufficiency
communication resource-fullness,

And yet,
     and yet,

Beneath such reasonable busyness,
when I can sustain
opulent MeWe identity,

Even so,
     even so,

EgoWe remains curiously distinct,
courageously Not Othered,
curiously not yet Othering

Embracing 
peak biosystemic health,
abstractly known integrity
falls short of panentheistic lust
specifically touched
     sensory
          and sacredly sexual
mystery

Mysterious loneliness sees,
smells,
hears,
tastes,
appreciates
deeply depreciates
absence of fully embodied 
love touches
of verbal sound,
of nonverbal skin
hair
fingers
toes
and other shyer shows.

Loneliness knows opulent warm textures
and peak sensory beauty

Effaces more theoretical reasons
win/win
for co-empathic healthy seasons

Of nurturing resonant,
full-embodied resilient,
Self/Other recombinant
     transubstantiating
     panentheistic full-color wealth,

PolyPathic
PolyPhonic 
PolyCultural
PolyVagal
not yet climate loneliness
chronic traumatizing despair

Including multiculturally evolving SelfAppreciation
BioOrganic  revolving SelfSufficiency
CoOperative involving resource-fullness.

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