Blind Faith of Love

i am waiting for the right moment.. to tell the world that i am not crazy.. to think and feel who i truly am.. i am who i was crated to live.. dare you try to stop me from living.. i don't need fake love only with words.. that doesn't have any proven meaning to show.. do you think that i wanted to wait for a life time.. for you to give me the rightful place i deserve to be.. in your life that i thought i was born to be... many said many things as lies or as the truth.. but all i see is and felt was nothing with you.. once or twice i guess i felt an energy.. it said silently that's you..and i believed you... i have grown more than i thought i would.. when i could ask for anyone to love.. from the creator who created me for me.. i choose you over everyone and only you alone.. i gave up everything and asked for you.. but i lost everything and you too along with it.. and today i feel you are a stranger to me.. and i feel and i know the memories are fading.. all the times we spend together talking.. the memrise i made and cherished with you.. today i feel it means nothing to me.. i know you will feel as i am really selfish.. yes i am because i love my self and i am proving it.. not to impress anyone but i have found my own love.. self love that took away the blind faith i believed.. that your silence and your betrayal was love.. i was running behind a mirage in a desert.. thinking you are the one and the only real one.. but what a fool i was to think that we are belonged.. when univeser showed me its unrequired love.. why would i even think that a person like you.. will love me and that's madly in love.. i try to find even one small reason to find out.. that you truly did speak about me in public.. but it was all a cover up for you life sake to be safe.. how can a person like me be madly in love with you... but well now i am here to say this to you.. i loved you and it was in the past.. and the past is past .. by gones are bygones.. and for you the same my past love of my life.. as i am grateful for all what you did for me.. and i have giftee you everything you ever wish .. but other than me you will have all you need.. i was told you are my fate and my destiny.. so i wait until the fate will truly show me... that you and i are beloned for ever.. so what's there to loose as i have lost all in all.. other than my trust and faith in the universe.. i have lost a home and even top call a home.. i am not blaming you and i don't think i ever will.. its my mistake and the bad choices i made.. to have and held blind faith thinking you are the one.. i was never after you money if you thought i was.. may be my appearance would have triggered you.. but what am i to do as i was created as this way as one.. its fine you never loved me or never wanted me.. because i am in love with myself and i am the one.. i don't need you or anyone thats thinks and feel.. that i am an option for anyone to be choosing from all the once.. please find your way out from my own heart.. as i have already showed you the way out... if the fate and destiny the one to bring us as one.. still you need to prove me that you are the one.. i don't trust you or anything you or they say out loud.. people do lie and act to show they are truly the one.. i am done and i am gone.. as i surrender all in all.. to the universe who created me as i am to be.. until this all happens i am ready to love.. to the one who truly deserve and belonged.. and this time even small details i will take to my count.. not going to be fooled by all the fake act of all the ones.. i do not hate you or i do not feel any love for you.. as i was madly in love with you in the past.. you fooled me because i was in need of love.. but i found my self with unconditional self love .. but i am ready to love and be belonged.. even if its not you but i will be madly in love.. when universe brings the right true one to love.. this is my final good bye and farewell to you.. with all my heart and all i am as one.. good bye to you and i am grateful for all.. if we are to meet at the right place at the right time.. you will still have to prove everything as truth of all.. forgiveness is not a freely given gift after all.. so may the universe do the best for me in my life.. as i have done all i could even you betrayed me all in all.. what if i do the same as you did to me betray you as you did to me... always remember i will treat everyone as they treat me.. nothing more nothing less even for fake or true love.. so lets wait and see what the future brings to us.. because i know that the rejection of you to me.. was the blessing that as untold to me in the past.. so as i have changed grown and evolve.. i am ready to love and be loved.. share my life for eternity with all my love... and now i am shaking your hand as good bye with a smile.. i am grateful but i am moving on for one true love.. and may the universe fate and destiny decide for us.. and then i will give you my welcome hug.. good bye queen of my past..i deserve the best of all..!! dilu dw 26/07/23 i