Birthday Wish - A

There lie cake and candles And I'm not knowing what to do I clap along to their singing Hoping they finish their quadrilingual song And we get through I lean over the cake pulling my hair away Reminiscing quickly over the past year, past day I hear someone tell me to make a wish, asking me if I will So I think of everything I wanted, things I claimed that to have them I would even kill But it all seemed so petty for a birthday wish, too superficial I wanted this wish to mean something, something crucial I glance up quickly and scan the crowd Listening to their tone deaf singing, so proud Think of what helped me survive, made everything okay And I know what to wish for But I steal a glance at the door She isn’t there, though I hoped she was Guiding, watching me grow, like she always does I know what to wish for, and lean forward at last Structuring my wish fast I wished for them I wished for her who was there for me day or night To talk to, play with, even fight I wished for him who spoke his heart so true But hid it so well I never had a clue I wished for him who was too small But his personality built him up so tall I wished for her who never did overreact She's crazy and placid, that’s a contradicting fact I wished for him who's bribed to walk And makes me laugh with our random talk I wished for him, his smile so wide Remembering that when he left, I cried Wished for her who always nags Always there for a vent, a gush, and loving me always, in riches or rags I wished for him, the one I held a hidden love for The one that always gave then gave some more I wished for her, the total crazy The one so different, yet the same as me I wished for the two to trust The true male version of us I wished for the one I feel the need to shelter The one that has helped me just as I've helped her I wished for the perfect couple standing by Who will probably be in love till they die I wished for the guy who shares my dad's name For his smile, conversation, and jokes that are just plain lame I wished for the brother missing Despite all the years of fighting, hitting, and dissing I wished for each and every one of them, for them all The kids crowding around me, filling the room wall to wall I wished to have them by my side till the end of time There to catch me at every fall and help me with every climb The ones there with me through this journey The ones I love, and who love me I want them there with me through every endeavor So I wished to have them forever and ever