Betrayal of Letting Go
Time passes so slowly,
laughter seeks solitude-
Breaking hearts of the holy,
devoid of sinister gratitude.
Reservation of feeling love again has expired,
seeking not what leads to joy leaves me tired.
I fear only what lies ahead as the years pass,
internal fire led me down a path of crimson glass.
I walk amongst the fields that hope does surpass.
Refraining from all things that bestow relief,
where heartache without faith is my belief.
Yearning to let go and feel the pain no more,
for it has always been eagerness to heal I do adore.
I fight with all my might at the ten-thousandth war.
The magic that holds up the sky has withered,
where stars stay silent and pain was delivered.
I’ll continue to hold on until panic says goodbye
wondering if I will ever be able to dignify a dirty lie.
I stay in this stone castle where dread I can’t deny.
Time needs more hours,
hours need more days-
nourishing sorrow’s showers...
where my letting go betrays
I chose: "Holding Back the Years"
Musical Inspiration Contest
May 29, 2019
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