Bemused and Flustered -Part 1-

Flustered, but I’m moving on from here I can’t wait to hold you oh so dear Haunted by the forgettable dreams I’ve been having lately Taunted by the chorus of voices in my head Losing control due to the dangerous dread, Piling up in my head…in my mind’s eye, I’ve been feeling free Yet, trapped in this body of worthless fears… And bottling up these tranquil, tiresome tears Ain’t helping much, but it’s how I cope with the pain deep inside Haven’t I told you that I’ve tried? God is testing me I can feel it…please erase the remaining pride Inside me…sorry for crying out loud – it’s because I was flustered These mixed feelings that drive inside of me are mustered Inside this head – now, I’m feeling awfully dead Cussing up a storm, Still stuck in this lonely dorm Talk is cheap – that’s why I avoid it Honestly, I’m breaking bit by bit Living life with a blank canvas Hopefully, these hardships will pass me by Don’t give up on me, though times are getting tougher than ever Flustered, but I’m moving on from here I can’t wait to hold you oh so dear Haunted by the forgettable dreams I’ve been having lately Taunted by the chorus of voices in my head Losing control due to the dangerous dread, Piling up in my head…in my mind’s eye, I’ve been feeling free Drinking milk and chocolate bits due to boredom that makes me feel slightly high Sugar and sweets are helping me cope with emotions that churns and churns constantly inside me – you push it aside like it’s whatever…I’m the master of my constructive and destructive matter…I’m a perfectly beautiful disaster Irritated to the extreme You lowered my self-esteem Sorry won’t cover it – actions speak louder than words…I dare you to be nice… You know, wasting time has its high price…my mind runs wild like field mice Roll the dice and see if it makes a seven You make me complete almost…you’re a hell and a heaven Flustered, but I’m moving on from here I can’t wait to hold you oh so dear Haunted by the forgettable dreams I’ve been having lately Taunted by the chorus of voices in my head Losing control due to the dangerous dread, Piling up in my head…in my mind’s eye, I’ve been feeling free The television doesn’t work I went kinda berserk The computer was giving me so many problems Yet, I still have a couple of gems That I’m thankful for – Those gems are my friends, family and fans from around the world I know there’s hope and joy in store… Praise be to Him… My marvelous whim I will carry on, though I have holes in my mind I will move forward, though I’m left behind Move forward at the speed of light You will be with me tonight I don’t care how much heartache I’ve gone through this year Because all of that disappears when I’m with you, my dear I spent my life, daydreaming in a whirlwind of wonder and doubt I’ve been believing in you for so longer – you are what I ponder about I’m walking that narrow route of wisdom Although I feel foolish and dumb