Believe

Believe She sat down at the kitchen table to read his letter. Her smile faded as she read his words. She had almost fooled herself this time. How could she believe he would actually change? How could she believe he'd be any better? This time she'd made up her mind. This time she could read his lies. It had only been a matter of time before she could read between the lines. It was all here. It was so very clear. Someway, somehow this time. She thought back on the last few years to where she was right now. She'd come so far when she'd gone so far away. She had ignored new opportunities and every open door. She held in unneeded tears because none of that was worth it anymore. He certainly wasn't even worth what she knew she had to say. She told herself, "I know your secrets. I know your lies. I know what's running through your mind. I know the truth. I have have the proof. All the proof I'll ever need. It's not about you anymore and it's not even about me. It's about the fine line between right and wrong. It's about the hardest fight you couldn't win because even you couldn't stand that strong. It's about the trophies you thought you won and the girl you couldn't bear to lose. She'll never forget every insult and every bruise. You better be thanking Providence every day that your life isn't in your hands; that Someone Greater is still there and will always be the One Who understands." She sat there silently, deciding what to say. She couldn't believe that things had turned out this way. It felt like another time and place. It felt like two worlds had collided and existed only to remind her that miracles still happen every day. She raised her head, wiped some tears that fell secretly on the sleeve of her borrowed coat, and cleared her throat. Her words had a new meaning. A powerful new meaning. A meaning more meaningful than ever before. It was like finally closing a trap door that had no place there anymore. "I finally have my answer. It's not what I thought it would be. It's not anything I expected to see. It's not going to be easy, but it will be the easiest and hardest thing I've ever done. I've been losing this fight but I think I won it tonight. I think I won it a fairly long time ago. I just didn't really know. I finally feel like me. Like the girl I used to be. Like the girl I'm meant to be. I believe. I finally believe. I needed a miracle and that miracle was granted to me. I truly believe.