Before the Change

My mind runs wild with fear As i walk below a dark cloud That follows me and interferes With my excitement of the change And then coming into the light The night passes Light shines through And tranquility befalls me I mourn the leaving of my home, My safe haven, My happy place My family My safe haven Driven by anxiety, my mind creates a storm Trying to resolve problems that dont exist In a desperate attempt to fight the feeling Of failure The abnormality of it is real And then the storm passes After the damage is done I think of his smile Tranquility befalls me I think of our home that we will have Tranquility befalls me I think of us making breakfast Of staying in bed on a rainy winter's day Of hugs and love Of our children from God And of the wonderful things waiting for us That we know not of And tranquility welcomes me