Becoming Me

I have been too long in the shadows trying to hide the hurt and shame. I wanted to run away from myself and not carry the the burden of blame. I needed something to hang on to, something to occupy my mind. I didn't need to relive this anymore, I needed to leave it behind. I know that it wasn't my fault that the situation became so bad. I was just trying to survive, using anything that I had. I used my strength to fight the demons that were plaguing me. My thoughts were not my own and neither is the image I see. I had to shatter this illusion, so that I could finally be the person that I truly am, the one that longs to be free. The truth, the reality of it all is right in front of me. I know that I had been wronged, something that I needed to see. With this revelation came understanding and that has made me strong. Now I can put things right and rid myself of the wrong. My life and how I live it is finally up to me. I no longer seek approval for who I have come to be. It hasn't been easy to get here and it won't be easy to stay. I am ready to give it all that I can so I can find a a sense of peace someday.