Because I Love You

In my hands I hold your knife Contemplating whether I should Take my life Not because of self-hate but thoughts Of losing you Never do I want to go on without you Especially not this soon For I feel as if you complete me Your my better half That one that holds my heart The only one I've ever had When I think of you I see you leaving me Why I'll never know Because I believe we're meant to be Everyone else who has said they'll stay Has left me behind but your the one that must not Because I need you in my life With a pen On my forearm I draw a dotted line I tell myself its my body All mine yet in my hea I know That to you I partly belong Then again I think My last breath will be the sweetest song just this one single line One final deep incision A puddle of blood To keep me from living No more pain caused by fear There will no longer be any sorrow I'll be able to avoid the word 'bye' Because there will very well be no tomorrow I could not take it To see you walk away I do not want to live only to see that day I'm trying to escape from whats in my heart Feelngs and thoughts that everyone will let me go Then again to be honest to you and I Unless I live I'll never know