Because I Have To

I wait all the time for the phone to ring hoping you're the one on the line then when it rings it's still not you on the other end I'm left here exhausted because I have all these feelings for you and all this love to send my eyes are wide open yet I can't see clearly enough why can't I stop driving myself so crazy with all this stuff you would think after so long of looking for you that I would realize me having patience would be a clue but patience was never one of my virtues and when I saw you I knew I had to keep pushing through praying each moment of everyday something will give and you will soon come my way waiting for the right moment to say what I have to say I look around and all I see is you I close my eyes and memories of you are everywhere I can't put my own thoughts in order my words don't make sense and are scattered sometimes I feel like screaming just to have it all shatter maybe then I could breathe again but there's never really no end not until I can fulfill what my heart keeps telling me is still the right things to do the only things that will get me to move through the rest of my life looking deep into your eyes saying aloud with tears falling down I'm still i love with you I'm going to do this because I have to