Battlefield of Love's Torment
Achingly, I watch as you frequently fall
For the idyllic notion of unconditional love
The dream, the desire, the fantasy
Drawn, inexplicably, to the potent flame
Of one who ignites the spark
You learn from her, confide in her
Losing yourself
As she reheats each chamber of your tepid heart.
You feel safe in her presence
Becoming stronger, happier,
Each time you put a smile on her face
And oh, how her eyes light up…
You do that
That’s your power
The power to bring her joy
You feel invincible
Yet you can’t help thinking
“She will leave eventually. They always do.”
Still
Your body aches to touch her
Just one inch of her delicate skin.
And as your fingers caress hers
Your heart falls
Fast
But it’s not enough.
You want your soul to dance seductively with hers
You want to live an unprecedented moment of bliss-
Savouring precious minutes as they come
She makes you want to share your thoughts
Your dreams, your memories
Making you laugh
Hard
Until those destructive demons surface
And you view it as a power that she holds over you.
So, you distance yourself.
You can’t give her that control
You’re conflicted
Tormented
Back and forth
Negative interpretations
Fighting with the peace and tranquillity
She brings to your day.
Your life with her now a constant battle
Between the heart and the mind.
And in all the inner turmoil
You lose sight
Of the moment you so desperately want to live in
That moment of love,
That feeling of love.
And in your damaging distance
Propelling pain
Setting fire to the flag of love she waves for you
You unknowingly annihilate her world
Over and over again
A vicious cycle of relentless conflict
No ceasefire in sight
And when you’ve finally pushed her enough
She retreats, back to the trenches,
Vowing to never let you hurt her again.
And finally, it sinks in…
She’s gone.
As good as dead!
Now a black hole exists
Where once a rainbow coloured your sky
And you tell yourself how right you were
To expel her from your heart
You knew she would walk away
You were right
She obviously wasn’t the one for you
Because if she was
She'd have put up with anything-
Accepted who you really are
Unconditionally
Now stranded in the sands of solitude,
You muster the strength to yearn again
For one who will answer your call
The woman of your dreams
So, you meet someone
Again
Who makes you laugh
Reawakens desires
And you wonder…
“Could she be the one?”
And Oh...
How you love to make her smile
Copyright © Midnight Aurora | Year Posted 2019
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