Bad Energy

So, I’ll be quite frank about how I feel… Dealing with my demons, made out of steel And I have been feeling numb all my life Due to a lack of peace…dealt with hellfire strife I don’t mean to be rude I don’t mean to be crude I don’t mean to be harsh My mind, a miserable marsh I am blunt and honest I was a liar at its best I slip and fall and failed God’s test… But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird out of His nest So, I’ll be true to myself till the end… There are tons of scars I have left to mend And I have been dealing with distress There’s a lot on my mind I must confess I don’t mean to be rude I don’t mean to give you attitude I don’t mean to be harsh My mind, a miserable marsh I am blunt and honest I was a liar at its best I slip and fall and failed God’s test… But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird from the west So, I don’t mean to send you bad energy There’s got to be a way out of my captivity And I have been feeling my way out of the dark Like a dawn-deprived lark…soon, I will be like Noah’s Ark I don’t mean to be rude I don’t mean to intrude I don’t mean to be harsh My mind, a miserable marsh I am blunt and honest I was a liar at its best I slip and fall and failed God’s test… But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird, unlike the rest So, let me show you my true colors There are flaws in my character, but I’m sure there are cures And I have been concealing these tears in these eyes I tell you the truth…the truth behind the lies… The truth behind the lies… I know you might be unwilling to hear my cries I’ve been trying too many of my tries… I keep hearing your endless whys… But, sometimes, you leave me speechless with your replies… Letting out some shameful sighs, loosening up the ties… You don’t know what happened behind closed doors You don’t even know me anymore…this bad energy scores And guess what? I am not stepping foot on your masonic floors… Because I’m heading Home where my heart is… I’m heading Home where my mind is… Bit by bit, I am learning how to carry with me His spirit Yes, I’ve gone with the wind of my elegant peace… No longer shall I cling on to past fees And I wander through the woods of my inner being… And I wonder where you’ve been up to…what have you been seeing? Have you been seeing the secrets that I hold on to? Have you been holding back love so true? I slip and fall and failed God’s test… But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird out of His nest I didn’t know I gave you bad energy Sorry, but at the same time, I’m not sorry I should feel guilty incredibly…but fortunately, I’ve moved on from this guilt trip I once called My House… Torn apart, but not all the way – the cat hasn’t got the mouse… Just maybe, I can try to be rid of my bad energy for the better Just feel the echoes of my footsteps in your heart’s mesmerized murmur You look insane in your pain, so be embraced by my open arms No longer be swayed by mischievous, devious charms You’re alive and well While I’m in my lonely cell I look up at the hole whence I fell There is more tension to let go of You’ve been in your shell of broken love Sorry I’ve let you down, my delightful dove And I have been concealing these tears in these eyes I tell you the truth…the truth behind the lies… The truth behind the lies… Bear with me as I drift into sweet sleep I know you and I will sow what we reap The words you said to me, they cut so deep My heart is overwhelmed, it’s about to leap So, I rest my head, pounding with dread Dealing with difficulties and what lies ahead And I have been stealing away your good energy Due to my lack of peace…I felt yours and break free…freely… So, am I willing to let go of bad energy? Are you willing to drive away my demons of unkind vanity? Put out the flames of ice in my soul… Together, we will reveal the pages of our story Just know that you are so beautiful… Even if you are living an awfully odd allegory