David William Breidenthal Poet Free verse

Bad Energy

So, I’ll be quite frank about how I feel…
Dealing with my demons, made out of steel
And I have been feeling numb all my life
Due to a lack of peace…dealt with hellfire strife

I don’t mean to be rude 
I don’t mean to be crude
I don’t mean to be harsh
My mind, a miserable marsh
I am blunt and honest
I was a liar at its best
I slip and fall and failed God’s test…
But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird out of His nest

So, I’ll be true to myself till the end…
There are tons of scars I have left to mend
And I have been dealing with distress
There’s a lot on my mind I must confess

I don’t mean to be rude 
I don’t mean to give you attitude
I don’t mean to be harsh
My mind, a miserable marsh
I am blunt and honest
I was a liar at its best
I slip and fall and failed God’s test…
But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird from the west

So, I don’t mean to send you bad energy
There’s got to be a way out of my captivity 
And I have been feeling my way out of the dark
Like a dawn-deprived lark…soon, I will be like Noah’s Ark

I don’t mean to be rude 
I don’t mean to intrude
I don’t mean to be harsh
My mind, a miserable marsh
I am blunt and honest
I was a liar at its best
I slip and fall and failed God’s test…
But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird, unlike the rest

So, let me show you my true colors
There are flaws in my character, but I’m sure there are cures
And I have been concealing these tears in these eyes
I tell you the truth…the truth behind the lies…
The truth behind the lies…
I know you might be unwilling to hear my cries
I’ve been trying too many of my tries…
I keep hearing your endless whys…
But, sometimes, you leave me speechless with your replies…
Letting out some shameful sighs, loosening up the ties…

You don’t know what happened behind closed doors
You don’t even know me anymore…this bad energy scores
And guess what? I am not stepping foot on your masonic floors…
Because I’m heading Home where my heart is…
I’m heading Home where my mind is…

Bit by bit, I am learning how to carry with me His spirit

Yes, I’ve gone with the wind of my elegant peace…
No longer shall I cling on to past fees
And I wander through the woods of my inner being…
And I wonder where you’ve been up to…what have you been seeing?
Have you been seeing the secrets that I hold on to?
Have you been holding back love so true?

I slip and fall and failed God’s test…
But, I get back up and try again…though I’m a little bird out of His nest

I didn’t know I gave you bad energy
Sorry, but at the same time, I’m not sorry
I should feel guilty incredibly…but fortunately,
I’ve moved on from this guilt trip I once called My House…
Torn apart, but not all the way – the cat hasn’t got the mouse…

Just maybe, I can try to be rid of my bad energy for the better
Just feel the echoes of my footsteps in your heart’s mesmerized murmur
You look insane in your pain, so be embraced by my open arms
No longer be swayed by mischievous, devious charms

You’re alive and well
While I’m in my lonely cell
I look up at the hole whence I fell
There is more tension to let go of
You’ve been in your shell of broken love
Sorry I’ve let you down, my delightful dove

And I have been concealing these tears in these eyes
I tell you the truth…the truth behind the lies…
The truth behind the lies…

Bear with me as I drift into sweet sleep
I know you and I will sow what we reap
The words you said to me, they cut so deep
My heart is overwhelmed, it’s about to leap

So, I rest my head, pounding with dread
Dealing with difficulties and what lies ahead
And I have been stealing away your good energy
Due to my lack of peace…I felt yours and break free…freely…

So, am I willing to let go of bad energy?
Are you willing to drive away my demons of unkind vanity?

Put out the flames of ice in my soul…
Together, we will reveal the pages of our story
Just know that you are so beautiful…
Even if you are living an awfully odd allegory

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John Herlihy January 16, 2017 at 3:29 AM This is a hard-driving, frank, 1st person poem that takes hold of the reader and shakes him/her up a little. The honesty is what comes across as being most impressive AND the poem satisfies what I call with my students the "ICE criteria", namely Interesting . . . Convincing . . . Effective. Well done. JH David William Breidenthal January 16, 2017 at 4:49 AM :) Why thank you! Your comment an awesome one and it made me feel great! Thank you! Your work is intriguing as well. ;) -JWE

Rainbow Promise January 13, 2017 at 8:36 PM Seems like a confessional. Hope all is well, Rainbow. David William Breidenthal January 14, 2017 at 5:56 AM Yes it is somewhat like that. (: I try to write genuinely and be emotionally inclined in my writings. I think I have proven that I'm stronger in character in this poem. I try to sen d anyone positive vibes, not bad energy. Hope all is well with you too and thank you for reading. :) -JWE