Bad Day This Helps

I'm awkward but i know it alot more than i care to admit but i try to be normal and liked can't think of any better words than abnormal and disliked i'm not smart or well educated i guess i notice other things, emotion suppress it make me paranoid in cause i'm wrong but why did she twitch or stair so long i want to be weird but in a good way a strange hero with alot to say So you sit home Drinking alone Empty bottle in your hand Don't even try To sort out the lies It's worse to try to understand yea i stole that last verse, it seems to fit my brain doesnt work right to me that it pure wit but i'm probly wrong i ussaly am atleast i admit it i an't living a sham i like telling the truth, ya know so heres a few, lets go i'm scared of grey aliens, my father and the dark i'm near 21 so feel free to laugh and remark i read colour out of space couldnt sleep of a day i don't believe in a god, but in trouble i pray i think i'm drepressed, but don't say cause apprently it's cool now why do do we want to be damaged please tell me? how? i want to be weird but in a good way a strange hero with alot to say i like to sleep alot i ant lazy just in dreams, problems are forgot but strangely i drink alot of coffee what a strange thought, coffee? haha