Bad Boy Gone Good

Your life is a sandwich with many layers Your knife slaughtered me as you bewitch my mind with thought-slayers Coming undone by this bleeding hate-love relationship You tease me with insults that make me wanna cry, but I'll get a man's toughest grip I'm a Titanium ship when I'm without you I'm a merry-go-round when I place my foot in your shoe Fantasy reality, mesmerizing my mind's eye altogether I'm feeling better, thank you wholeheartedly...you're such radness, a mad mess My heather feather...light with desire-leather I'm dealing with matches of sadness and gladness Gagging from the reviving grossness from your hateful heart to my own Reliving the moments of Mayhem unknown Spiteful sensations and sentiments turn me off...be tough! Arrogant comments and demented laments...that's just rotten enough! You pulled out the lettuce of my Liam Neeson awareness I thought I-I was loved by my looks of miraculous eustress P.O.ed by the lack of dignity you have exchanged to me...you're out of my reach B.S.ed me several times with your charming speech I beseeched at the beach Sunny moonshine you gorged yourself with I didn't matter to you, for my everything isn't flattering completely...I failed successfully Reality is contrary to your beliefs, a lying myth I deny you not when you plan your way to see me at least two times a week; I'll wink to that childishly I wish your auras don't turn against me time and time and time again Refrained from riding you insane like a bike when it starts to begin You shot me with your glares and you ripped me off by your nightmares I cheated on life and death countless times with short-term, dark dares Spending hours and hours, squandering our time as usual... Thinking of what to write for this last part of the poem...hm, I'll think that through before I jot down my jiffy muse Staring at an angelic Apple before me and I'm about to take my first bite to enhance my energy fuel...how cewl!!! Then, I drop suddenly for a complicated reason that doesn't make sense, even in the season of Fall - Just cruising through the good side of life, but all you do is accuse me of abusing my leisure time -- such delighted news... It's almost as disappointing and horrid as losing your favorite phone And you are left on your own...hanging out with your imaginary buddy, Feeling Alone Misunderstood and feeling not-so-good, even in my own spiraling notion-filled head Constantly and rebelliously, begging God to evaporate the dread and give me all I want instead...craving the words left unsaid...blushing red Not good in the hood in my ghetto neighborhood Nourishing and nurturing food of it's-all-good Fitting in Growing thin Sick, choking on freezing fevers and underachieved endeavors Overrated me got underrated fast in a skipping stone second X-out my passion that leads to abominable sin Sacrificing pleasure by throwing my worries and temptations in the filthy bin Serve me smiles, not your painstaking piles I am your kitchen tiles When I should be your sunny sky You don't answer my "WHY??!!" When will I get your attention? I died a little inside, fighting the bothersome, irking urge to baby cry It irks me to see you go In these shoes of sulk, you know? You should KNOWWww I'm your odd and even numbers It doesn't EVEN matter ODDly Oh Gracious, Good God, your words of wisdom does last longer farther and doesn't expire like our fooldumb errors You flatter me with your ways, pretty ugly I must say apologetically Life is worth spending with you for eternity Death is exploring in a forever negativity Field of freedom is where I roam Life's a freeway of choices - my choice is going home bittersweet home Talk that talk Walk that walk I'm the bad boy gone good And you're the good girl gone bad, left to be misunderstood I can sympathize at the least But, my brave zeal is beast Now, let's feast to that...there will be dismay days like this and all that. . . . . I, the friend-and-foe cat and you, the dirty little rat