Awake

To sleep would be bliss and to rest divine Wishing for a simpler time A time when slumber did not evade And dreams, my fears did not invade Incessant ringing in my ears A grim reminder of wasted years Moments missed for unsaid things Repeated thoughts does each night bring. Sleep won’t come, the sandman is missing The eyes try to close and find no blessing Each time they do, appears the same vision The mess I created by indecision Questioning my actions time and again Thinking about what could have been How much longer can this pain last? When will it end, when will it pass? The mind cant take too much more Of restless feet pacing floor. Thumping! Pounding! Drowning!!! Forever screams are sounding!! Strangling pillow, punching air Yelling, crying, pulling hair!! Dawn’s a coming; nights passed by Still no rest for weary eye Dark orbits show my nightly hell Days like zombie but who can tell? Will push through just one more day And for insomnia’s release I pray