At the Time I Wasnt Ready

Emotional torment is what has conspired From a decision I made and reality that transpired A mistake so great only myself to blame Unexpected pregnancy the guilt does remain Trapped in abusive relationship no support id receive Abortion the only option my loss to alone bereave No maternal instinct no other way to go Except for breaking my moral standing code As I don't believe in abortion killing life that’s just begun But I had no other choice it was all that could be done No way or means of supporting a young life With a suffering relationship resulting in strife I didn't see it as a baby as it had not had time to form I do still wonder what would of happened if it had been born Will I go to hell for extinguishing a life that was forming? Only know on judgement day for my innocence I will be imploring Its best to know your not ready to sustain a child in this world Than recklessly inflicting life that I would become too furl A burden to raise a child singlehandedly with no help As Stephen was clear on making his true feelings felt It infuriates me more as if his response had acted in my decision As a baby would destroy my reality and future vision I do want children but with someone that wants them too So I must settle down and commit it is what I must surely do Im sure my soul mate is out there destined to wander on my path And that special someone will become my one true fath.