At My Point of Delusion

At my point of delusion When it seems all gone All my fears wash away Into the torrent of the ocean I feel at peace For the first time I am who I want to be I am where I am born to be I fear my dreams And wish my illusions were real And in my evasive world Reality is my nightmare A sentence to death be damned I will struggle to make this my truth I have but one regret That my family suffers for my retreat Hauling away day by day But who will revive it I see their rage over my disorder T’was love that set me apart And pulled me from reality But for their sake I must return back to the world I once knew I must fight this virus That disturbs my mind I must return to you my lovers