At Last

At Last
09/08/2018

Old thoughts in my mind
Found it hard to be kind
Undeserving, unnerving
Unwilling to unwind

So positivity blind,
To myself unkind
Defeatist, hedonist
True pleasure find

Searching for moderation
Full of resignation
Obsessive, compulsive
Unsure of destination

Questioning my commitment
Thought I’d be committed
Irrational, delusional
Suicide attempt committed

Sanity a soul search
Don’t snuff out my torch
Hopeful, loathful
Alone in the lurch

Reaching down deep
Ruminating can’t sleep
Deception, reflection
Decide to take the leap

Hard to ask for help
Though willing in self
Castigated, Motivated
Bereft of my health

Detox, rehab the help I need
Drugs, my mind and body plead
Addiction, affliction
A hunger, greed a need I feed

Clean of mind and thought
New thinking I’m taught
Sobriquet, Sobriety
Balance in life sought

Do it for self
For no one else
Dedicate, unmedicate
True wealth in health

Physical, mental, health balance
Self love forgiveness, all encompass
Spiritual, physical
True to self at last

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