As Time Flies

I seek to find. Some peace of mind. I'm crazy A bit lazy Sometimes life gets all hazy Seeking to find my way I hope to be a step closer with each new day Fighting the forever sad Sometimes makes me feel bad The pains of the past ones they said wouldn't last. Memories they taunt Haunt They say I'm mentally ill There is no cure in a pill I wish to be in the light My mind wants to fight Isn't right So I stay away Hard when you have no place to stay Cold rain on me falls The cold wind calls Around me the sadness presses me down Feels like I'm about to drown. But I keep going Keep knowing If I fall this day What will they say Will any one even care Pass me by and stare Maybe not fair I wish for more A room with a floor A door But l don't give up don't dare For I still care My heart grows week I don't know what it is I seek I grow old Shivering in the cold Hoping the sun will soon shine Don't mean to whine To proud To cry out loud No one would hear I fear I hide To get help I tried So I help myself I have no wealth Searching for my star No one said it would be this far Lonely is life The self made strife The world says We are the same We each hold some of the blame Lifes crazy game Still here I still fear Still cold My soul may be sold Reaching for that light Such a fight Struggling back to my feet Refuse to bow out in defeat Someday Someway I'll find my tomorrow That land of no sorrow That place of which I dream It is further than it would seem Dry my eyes My heart gently cries Till my soul flies