As I Lay Dying

I lay alone in this hospital bed dying With not a soul by my side Reflecting on the life l lead Tears of regret and shame l have cried I was not an easy man to live with I always felt the need to be right I would disagree and complain About “nothing and everything” in sight I should have listened to my wife feelings Told her what was in my heart How much l truly loved and needed her Before our marriage fell apart My family were my life Yet l never told them so Too stubborn, too selfish, too afraid To tell them what they needed to know So, I pushed them all away Because l never took the time To truly listen and understand Reassure ,comfort them ….that all would be fine I know now what l should have done differently Starting by telling them “l love you” everyday Accepted their differences and opinions Honestly “hearing” what they had to say! Said “sorry” when l should have Been loving ,giving and kind Told them their true worth and value My real feelings in both heart and mind Yet I never did that, l kept my real feelings locked away I am estranged from my family…. it’s too late for me now As l lay dying ,sad and alone in this hospital bed today So If l could give any advice to you as l leave this world It would be “tell and show” the ones you love exactly how you feel Do it today …..not tomorrow It is never to late to apologise, reconcile, forgive and heal!