Around 4 Am - Idiotic Insomnia Is Icky

I can’t help, but feel kinda restless Can’t sleep because I’m hopeless You got to save me from myself, my restful dear You are asleep in your melodic, swaying chandelier Prayers please…… Give me starlit and moonlit ease The sun is out and I’m on my knees Insomnia is a tease! Come down and help me up…you know what’s up… Inspire sleep to my eyes and body No body is listening to me…I’ve, frankly, given up… Trying to sleep at night like everybody It’s 4 AM and I am awake still for an odd reason unknown to me It’s 4 AM and I can’t seem to be closing my eyes that are weary 4 AM is really late, Yet extremely early…I have come to see… Helpless, so I hesitate 4 AM is past dead hour and I don’t care possibly… Hoping for sleep power…so, I can recharge my energy and joy tomorrow If not, I will surely, restlessly cower and most likely sing away my sorrow Could you sing me to sleep, my Father and Lord? Could you send me soothing vibes of Your accord? Help… My faith in You has grown sour…I’m but a wilted flower Wish I could have faith again…maybe, in another hour… When I am in my pleasant state and feel like giving praise Because I am in a frustrated, out-of-it and sick-of-it phase I yelp… A million manias and enlightenment of sleeplessness Is overwhelming all of me and It’s hard to make progress Oh Lord, I did several bad things that I feel awfully guilty for Oh my, I can’t believe I left behind good decision-making…it’s so frightening! I am bored and laying down in bed, waiting for rest in store I’ll try…I’ll try to get over the rainstorm of my endless thoughts, awakening… Awakening the monster of my lack of motivation Trying to resurrect the death of my determination I’m tired of failing every time I want to succeed I’m jealous of those people that have it all in control and happy as can be Pretty much screwed-up and worthless…like a garden weed… Pull me out and put me out of my misery…yes, if you can’t begin me, end me Oh, be rid of the suicidal tendencies and languishing anguish, coursing inside me suddenly I wait patiently…oh so patiently…for a change of mind and attitude to guide me genuinely 4 AM and I am lounging in my small, yet comfortable bed I feel like a messed-up mess and a wreck with a lot of dread Instead, I should get some well-needed sleep tonight, okay, goodnight I won’t weep for the loss of my big opportunity to make things alright Positivity needs to burn out the pangs of negativity I will reveal Your light of uplifting might With Your cheery, sun-shining rays of beloved serenity I will push away the blinds to unveil delight I want to wake up with a grin of gratefulness upon my face I need to wake up next to someone I so love in appreciation and in audacious anticipation I want to let you know you’ve been on my mind…just in case… You were wondering what was up with me recently…I’m taking a much-needed vacation Vacation time and me time Should be always sublime More often than not, making love and being naughty was on my crazy mind Shame on me for acting upon my human nature, but it felt so good to be bad Thanks a lot, insomnia, for keeping me beyond 4 AM now…gr, you’re so kind… Sex and sleep is a need I need to keep satisfied…even if it’s with me, myself and I – either way, I’d be glad, not sad or mad…alone time or cuddle time would be rad… I know it’s late, but make me feel midnight monsoons of playful pleasure Don’t shed me your darkness and hate during our sacred, cuddling leisure Be sincere to me and you will see my true colors vibrantly glimmer…does it occur to you that I’m more than just a mere blur Don’t deceive me with sugar-coated lies, man…tell me the truth straight to my hazel eyes I need someone to kiss away the scary fears I have inside…can’t look at my reflection in the mirror…I hear misery's murmur Not looking forward to your farewells – however, you effortlessly wave your goodbyes You wave goodbye and I return it with a hello You dismiss me, but, don’t think I’ll just simply go