L Milton Hankins Poet Italian Sonnet

Approaching Anniversary of Losing My Wife

Three long years since my love has gone away
And I have settled into a life of lonely self-ease,
Seeing no regrets or sorrows I need to appease
Still sometimes I think I live in perpetual disarray.
If morning should portend a dark and gloomy day
My personal freedom ensued from a dread disease
That took my loved one away like a chilly breeze,
Leaving me alone and bewildered in fogs of gray.

So, this quandary lingers in my oft-grieving mind
How to move my life into exciting new adventures
Without feeling guilty that my love is left behind,
That she is no longer able to grace my ventures
Which will not prevent me keeping her enshrined
And honoring her among my cherished treasures.

written October 26, 2021

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Bj Legros Kelley November 2, 2021 at 2:18 AM Your poem is a beautiful tribute to your wife. My heart aches to think of your sadness. I believe our loved ones know of our love and tributes of them. I love to think of the 'cloud of witnesses' the Bible talks about. I find it a comfort to think of the precious departed cheering us on in the race that is set before us. God bless you Milton. I hope you have a blessed week ahead. L Milton Hankins November 2, 2021 at 8:59 AM Thanks so much, BJ. It's a joy hearing from you, and I thank you so much for your positive message.

Caren Krutsinger October 28, 2021 at 9:25 PM Everything you write seems to honor Deb. I know she reads them all from her heavenly seat. L Milton Hankins October 29, 2021 at 9:52 AM I hope so. If she is, she's saying, "There he goes again!"

Shirley Hawkins October 26, 2021 at 4:41 PM Beautiful poem. My son died 29th Dec 1998 on my grandsons 12th birthday. Changing our lives forever. The love you share with your beloved wife will last forever. Take comfort in the fact this void you are feelng will pass. I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. I trust today and the days following will be brighter in everway. Take care...Shirley L Milton Hankins October 26, 2021 at 7:05 PM Thank you so much for your encouraging response, Shirley. I really appreciated it.

Debra L Brown October 26, 2021 at 3:07 PM I'm sorry for your loss. The poem was beautiful. You have graced her memory very well. Prayers! ~ Debbie L Milton Hankins October 26, 2021 at 7:05 PM Thank you, Debra.

Jan Allison October 26, 2021 at 1:26 PM aww Milt the dark autumnal days and nights certainly don't help when you are feeling down, hold on to those precious memories my friend, thinking of you, hugs Jan xx L Milton Hankins October 26, 2021 at 7:05 PM Thanks so much, Jan. Your words and your hugs mean the world to me.

DM Babbit October 26, 2021 at 1:20 PM They say time heals all ... perhaps, but our hearts linger forever with memories of those we loved and love still. I'd like to believe they are still with us, watching over us, still loving us. How grateful to know that in our lives, there is/was always that someone. So relish the anniversary and remember that love that is. L Milton Hankins October 26, 2021 at 7:06 PM Thank you, DM. I really do appreciate your kind thoughts.

Tom Cunningham October 26, 2021 at 12:46 PM A very emotional write Milton, I cant imagine the feeling of loss that you are going through, she's in your heart and in the happy memories that you made with her. Hope you're okay. Tom L Milton Hankins October 26, 2021 at 12:57 PM I'm fine, Tom. I just experience these bouts of melancholia this time of the year, and I think with good reason. I truly appreciate your concern and your friendship.

Jenna Logan October 26, 2021 at 12:32 PM Milt, I'm sure she knew she was a cherished treasure to you. You still hold her on that pedestal. I'm saddened by your gloom of missing her, but perhaps writing about her will help to ease your emotional pain, even if just a bit. Hugs L Milton Hankins October 26, 2021 at 1:01 PM Thanks so much, Jenna. I go through this as the time of her death nears. I have actually dealt with the grief very well, considering since she died, I have also lost a sister and two nephews. When you are older, it makes you wonder why they go and you are left behind. Jenna, I wrote you a Soup Mail. I do not recall hearing from you while you were in Florida, so I need to go back and check. If I did get your note, I apologize for the oversight because I do try to answer all communications. Thanks for the Hugs. I can use them!!!! Hey, have a wonderful week, friend.