Apology

Please,accept my apology You probably at this time reading my eulogy? Dont frown,or ask yourself why? Nothing at all could be done Dont waste your breath with a sigh This is my poem to you,A final goodbye See nothing has been fair from day one Ive since little childhood dreamt of the gun That would at the least lessen my souls great pain The pain that literally forsakes every move i make In this twisted world we live in My body is full of sin See,i cant win I believe i was destined at birth I really didnt choose my self worth It was handed to me at birth Its true,believe Ghost have haunted me most my life I suffered in complete silence secretly fasinated with what knives could bring me A permanate sleep the one i now adornMost importantly my pain is no more But today you read my last words aloud My only point is to tell That my only thing i ever felt was the love for and of my 3 children the only right thing i did in this lifetime