Anxiety

It hits again from nowhere That rush that fear that unknown My stomach turns I don’t want to go there But my thoughts are overthrown I have no control but I understand The reasons from within It’s like it takes me by the hand And it won’t let me win It guides my thoughts it takes my peace It forces me to be It brings me a fear of the unknown For it consumes what is me I am a passenger inside this mind Just clinging on for hope I want to leave this all behind But there’s fraying in this rope I used to fight I used to shout But now I just accept I once was strong but now I’m done Inside this shell concept I’m not me I’m not complete I barely know myself At my mind it now eats And takes with it my mental health But what can I do to improve This overbearing pain But who can I turn to Time and time again I feel I’m a pain to those I love I know I drove them mad As much as they say I’m above I’m held down, inside I’m sad Hollow feelings empty space An echo through my mind It never goes it’s always a race To search inside and find I guess I’ll live the rest of my days Just trying to survive But know this I’m afraid That it consumes my life