anatomy of hate
I take the blade
like a sculptor takes his chisel—
not for art,
but for erasure.
Skin is too quiet.
It wears my face like a mask I never chose.
So I slice,
deep enough to silence it,
to watch it speak in red.
Each cut a sentence.
Each bruise a thought I couldn't hold.
I dig through muscle and memory
trying to find what part of me
deserves forgiveness—
but all I find is rot.
Nails tear at the surface
when the blade dulls.
Teeth, fists, anything
to feel my hatred echo
through blood.
This is not performance.
This is penance.
This is punishment for waking up
in a body I never asked for.
They say:
“Don’t hurt yourself.”
As if it’s hurt.
As if it’s not relief
to open myself
and let the poison breathe.
I mutilate
because I can’t kill
what’s inside.
So I tear down the walls
again
and again
and again.
Not to die—
but to make the pain visible.
To show the world
what it did to me.
To make it real.
To make me real.
If only for a moment
before the blood dries
and the shame returns
wearing my name like a crown.
Copyright © blaire hensley | Year Posted 2025
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