An Invisible Enemy

Have you ever felt like there was an invisible force stopping your abilities. That you struggle against it so hard emotionally and mentally. But every time it's like dead stop until finally. You scream out in aggravation LET GO OF ME.. You change your tactics, your antics in order to loosen fates grip But while you're changing these things, your grip slips Hope sinks further making your heart skips Holding your breath while you watch the . It's like under water my head keeps getting shoved. I just need him to always feel wanted to feel loved I just want to help him to overcome, to rise above. Have you felt the feelings I speak of. I feel this pain in my heart it can hardly beat. I watch as my love one faces defeat. I know it's so easy to retreat When I think all is lost, our eyes meet. His eyes have sunken further and it almost kills me. I do all I can yet it's never enough until finally. Fate breaks it hold for a split second but you wouldn't believe That moment that split second I was broken mentally. Torture is the only word that seems to fit. Why can't I help him to get over this . I'd lend him my strength my wisdom anything he can have it. This tightening in my stomach is making me sick. I can't eat, its hard to sleep. When alone I find myself all my knees As I beg and plead Asking God to help him believe. They say he must want to get better first. I just wonder sometimes if he knows how much it hurts. If only he could find a way for it to work. So I could have my son back before it's time for me to leave this earth.