Alternate Ending

alternate ending ------------------- it seemed like a waste of my time like this chasing after money should be a crime like nnobody seemed to know anything better to do all these myriad people, not one with a clue but i did, and couldn't forget the moment when the spark was lit as i burned with longing and cried the explosion of the Spirit inside burned away the needs of the flesh and for a while i seemed to mesh with eternity and infinity, through the Divinity of Jesus Christ but i could find no way out of the worlds race no excape from the foul sight of Satans face everywhere i looked, everything i heard it seemed that we had all forgotten the Word i put a sledgehammer through my television and over and over made the decision to devote my lifwe to the ascension of the Trinity over all ther concerns and filth of society and the requirements of today but i could find no way i would pray, putting my entire heart into Gods hand He healed my crippled dog, you understand a miracle, as if i needed proof of His love i wanted nothing more than to die, and go above but i still live, here i am, and now to live without sin i don't know how after societies had it's way i hope i don't die today i guess i'm a sider, not a saint of olde i found comfort in this beer i hold and joy when i'm with my family and work is sometimes rewarding to me but i remember where i was before though i confess i've sinned some more i want to come back to God again this time maybe the world won't win and i can find peace of mind help