All Or Nothing.

There I was as white as a sheet, the alcohol was working ,I could not feel my feet. The bus was out of the question, taxi too. Walking was the answer,if only I knew. The rain was splashing against my face, my glasses steamed up I hurried my pace. M y head was buzzing,my stomach numb. Why oh why was I so dumb. I had only wanted a drink or two. My problem I cant say no. All or nothing,the only way to go. As i smoked the third cigarette,the effects were under way. My eyes were looking but not at you, I was a million miles away. The fourth drink was gone number five to. All the way the only way I know.. So here I am staggering alone. a couple more kilometers, and I will be home, as I look to cross the road, all is clear over I go. Wait stop!: I look with eyes of dread, a v.w golf has hit my leg. I look up give the o.k. then bells started ringing in my head. This road is one way. too late I say,he is off at least I am o.k. So here I am in the safety of home. I made it all alone I lay my weary head on the bed. All or nothing the only way to be. Once a year is enough for me.