After the Credits Rolled
Three years deep into freedom
And yet perhaps as tied down now as I was then
Scars are scars because they do not vanish
Fade as they might, that skin is numb forever
As a being made of scar tissue
My arm and back are dulled to this new world
Perhaps my brain and heart as well
As cortisol is as potent as any blade
I once thought it would be over that night
That when the credits rolled, the story would be completed
But do we ever wonder how characters feel
Once their plots are complete and they must go home?
Life goes on after the credits roll
We pick up the pieces left behind and build something new
A shelter from the strong winds and driving forces
That led us on our hero's journey to begin with
So the scars you inflicted on me remain
Where old haunts and new vistas
Can be smeared and tarnished so easily
As a flash of gold appears and pulls a trigger
A simple sandwich in an ancestral cave
A seed-studded outlook witnessing long-passed wars
Your specter haunts the depths of my vision
As a permanent reminder of what once was
It's easiest to remember the good times
Where even in the depths of despair
Any golden rope could serve as a permanent waypoint
To huddle and form a shield against the cold
It's no longer the case
Happier memories are now stained with ice and gray
And even after three years
I have not advanced much further beyond where I was
I've barely noticed the years passing, to be honest
Whereas every day with you dragged so slowly
They all merely blend together now
Empty and clear
Thus words fail me more than ever
As gathering the same desperate drive to be happy
Becomes harder and harder to do
I have ascended to zero from a sea of negativity
Serotonin was returned to me
By a dashing warlord atop a frozen hill
Not altering my mind to fill it with false happiness
But rather unlocking parts of it I hadn't used it years
So I await the effects
Can I fade these scars so well that even I'm convinced?
Or will this terrible portrait you painted on my neurons
Be the subject of viewer adoration forever?
Copyright © Derek Chos | Year Posted 2019
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