Adhd Me

I'm dyin' inside And I don't know if I was ever alive On these streets It's all too much Lookin' at myself It's all too much Thinkin' these thoughts One day is a day too many But one less day Is one day too few Thinkin' one day at a time My thoughts spinnin' Sloshing around my noggin Scrambling my senses Confusing my actions Beneath a lense I squirm and look away But they're just eyes Do they see me at all It's all too much Surrounded by people It's all too much Fermenting alone But I get bored of people When they don't understand me So I lock them out of my mind Speaking in a tongue they can't contemplate The only walls surround my mind And I can't quite articulate how tall they are Nor can I really break through them So I lean against them Words spoken and mirrors broken Shattered glass around my bare feet Symbolizing the people I meet I'm terrified to move and face defeat Friendship, love, and fellowship These concepts are foreign to me I thought I knew but I really don't I think I need it but don't want it Loneliness is the oxygen I breathe Solitary confinement the water I drink Antisociality is the clothes on my back Fear is the shelter I cower in It's all too much Thinkin' about it all It's all too much This ADHD me