Abused

this is for a special friend, who couldn't find love .. He says he loves me, he says he cares, but he doesn't want to say anything, when i want him to be there. Is the connection with love or hate showing? i ask myself " where is our relationship going"? i want him to love me for who i am, but if he doesn't , i guess our relationship can end. are you glad your not in my body? are you glad you cant feel this pain? or are you glad i cant throw hurt and scars at you, from my hurtful silence that remains? STOP writing me down in history, with your dumb old twisted lies, STOP putting marks on my body, or like dusk.. ill be saying goodbye. because of you, I'm limping with pain, because of you, my hurtful silence remains, because of you, i will be physically hurt for a while. because you wanted to hit me, and have no reason why. i don't want to be chocked up, punched again, kicked or even bruised..not mentioning the fact, by you, YES I've been used! why didn't i say anything, i bet you even sell drugs ? i just wish i had a true boyfriend, that didn't hit me, but give me hugs. when i dont do what you wan, you hit me, because i think your SLOW ! and that you should find another boxing bag, because i really .. have .. to go .. (A.T.S)