Absolution

Within a tear I shed Lists all the deeds I dread Things that I have done From which I wish I could run Or perhaps bury in the sun So, they would burn away And I wouldn’t have to pay But let’s face the truth There is no wisdom In youth I don’t mean to sound uncouth But there are things I regret And upon reflection Situations I wish I never met It’s a rotten feeling To be reeling That others have been hurt From things I have done Its self-pity and shame That make me want to run A self-loathing of adolescence Of doing things That made no sense A mistake of the past tense They say there is forgiveness But I don’t want to be forgiven I want another chance at living I want to do it all again And know all the answers beforehand I don’t want mistakes I don’t want regrets I want to cheat and hedge my bets Is the honesty of my intent Beautiful or hell bent? Or just a soul letting itself vent? I’ve done wrong to a few And for that parts of me Will forever feel blue It’s not something new Just something you accrue As the time carries on It is with a downward gaze That I wish them the best A long and peaceful rest A plea of spiritual behest The scars I retain from our time Have taught me the sublime For this my gratitude Pales to your loss I gladly offer my salvation To replace you on the cross And show my repent That my love for you Is Heaven sent For I am human I am weak I am meek It is of sin that I reek It is your forgiveness I seek……… Please forgive me……….