Aborted Trauma Tales

When you and your wife visited, you shared a question asked by a pastor of a raped and thereby pregnant vulnerably young and questioning parishioner. "If your unborn child survived his first year and walked back into your home do you think you would still want to kill him?" Probably not, I'm thinking. And, perhaps more pastorally significant and responsible, how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves and for those who trespass against us mitigate sacred rage against ancient sins of our predative Fathers? The next morning over coffee and breakfast your wife told another surprising story of meeting a woman in a Carolina church basement who boldly claimed to be an unapologetic pagan Certainly not repenting; more like recruiting UnStraight out proud wiki without thinking that might be an appropriate sin for inviting healing prayer rather than embracing as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul maternally regathering Holy Spirits. Your wife's response cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine! weaponized words, another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers "I don't think I've ever heard anyone say that before" right out in public toward lunchtime on a bright spring day and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel this pagan should be aborted Stoned to death or at least hanged for defying the Good News of Straight White King James English colonizing Jesus. If there was a conversation about how pagans may feel about abortion of healthy tribal lives or Great White Father rape, or the somewhat wider history of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom she did not mention such old crone witchery Studying dark theistic codes of dueling her/history usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives for exceptional survival reasons emerging throughout traumatic transition years for various viciously circling seasons A well-capitalized verbally articulate personalized monotheistic God might appear to be against polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses within EarthTribe mind-spirited space, political place, economic race. On the Othered, and unsafely aborted, hand polytheistic spiritual commitments supporting multicultural animistic pantheistic panentheistic polycultural respect may more resiliently redevelop sacred sentient holy spirited life at the EarthTribalPeace level of sacred passion Respect for our interdependent thriving lives does not mean we are not also abortionists to survive trauma of invasive felt predations, biological and ecological and political and theological. Divine respect for co-infested fertile life might include respect for death and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed As we hold hands and bow our heads as grateful advocates for hungry stomachs satisfied, for sacred quenching waters, outs and ins of healthy bodies, backs and forths of wealthy minds Baptized in earthy thirst for tribal trust does not imply that when and what I swallow, I abort And do not also co-invest in this our resilient communion Health care giving and receiving EarthTribe sentient wealth Respect for dark deeply raging patriarchal trauma does not imply disrespect for more therapeutic matriarchal light And just so, I reversely suppose, universal peace uniting holy spirited respect for resilient brilliant sentient life Does not imply disrespect for trauma, despair and death Which I had been struggling with when you and your wife visited, and you shared your story of a raped and thereby pregnant traumatized EarthTribe .