A Victim

A VICTIM I was told I should not have any contact with you. Maybe I can put all of this behind me if you know how I feel. It might not be a problem to you, but I want you to imagine what I feel. Don't take it personal I just want to get a few things off my chest. It might take a few tears, but I will do my best. Exactly a few years ago everything was taken away from me even my ego. Sometime I feel like a piece of me is gone, however I have moved on. That day changed my life, and with help from God I will one day be a loving man's wife. I somtimes sit and think what went wrong, why you didn't leave and leave me alone. It might sound strange that I forgive you with all my heart, because one day my soul will have to part. TELL ME! Does that day go through your head? At the beginning it was so bad I wished I was dead. When I lie down and close my eyes there is your face and no matter how hard I try I can not hide from that day. Dream after dream night after night it's a struggle to sleep, and I constantly fight. One day that time will come when we will meet face to face back in "HELL" is where I call that place. I want to know why, why did you do this to me, you took everything even my insanity. Therefore, by the grace of God I will live day to day, but not one day has pass thinking have you found your way. That day has come and gone. and I have had evil thoughts of what I want to do you. The same thing you have done to me. I am a forgiven person I will just let it be. I felt something for you, and I know you are lost. However I know God will guide you to his cross. Seek him, because he knows you, get down on your knees and he want you to get to know him too. As you are down there ask him what is it that he wants you to do. Again if you ask for forgiveness God will forgive you and from the bottom of my heart I will forgive you too.